I'm in a state of confusion AGAIN.

I know it sounds terrible but I rather be truthful about it. I still cannot adapt to this kind of life! And it's not your fault. It really isn't. It's ME. I cannot overcome myself and I just can't!

Maybe you'll say I need MORE time. But I really don't know.

Love comes in many forms. I admit that I DO LOVE YOU, but I can't seem to reciprocate your kind of love for me.....Sometimes I think you "idolise" me instead, which makes you think you love me when you actually don't.

I do feel happy when I'm with you. I enjoy having your company, your jokes, your warm sudden hugs, your care, concern and everything else that you've done for me. I feel the sweetness when you tell me you miss me after a long hectic day and I really really appreciate it, but you know very well that I cannot give you the same amount as what you give me.

I even told you harshly that you won't be my final choice. But why are you still so nice towards me? Sometimes I rather you just give up on me and find a nice girl around you that loves you wholeheartedly. I really don't feel right because I know it's unfair to you, even though you've told me upteen times that you're ok with that.

Words can't express what exactly I feel, but I just wanto still let you know that I LOVE YOU in a way like a best friend, but not what you expect me of you. You're a real nice guy and I can't bear to hurt you.

You will always be the VIP in my heart, so special and irreplacable. Thank you for loving me, the unique bond between us will always be a special one.